Self-Control

Ladies,

Whatever comes our way, our best defense is always our poise. When you lose your calmness and end up being bitchy to others, that's just so wrong. Aku faham masa tu kamu tengah stressed out because of a possible loss of a family member. I have lost my father, and that happened when I was just 11. You can say I did not fully understand what happened since I was so young. Wrong. I had complete awareness of what was going to come. That was why I was so depressed. Yet, I did not take it out on almost strangers, I still talked to people in a way that will make them believe I was OK and I was being brave.

If you had just cried, I'd understand and pity you. But to say "Fikirlah sendiri, fikir, fikir. Ada otak kan? Fikirlah sendiri"... I'm sorry, but that is just too wrong.

This goes to the guys as well. Cool guys are labeled cool because they are cool. They know they are not supposed to lose their composure.

I am still a nobody to you. It's good that you see me as something more. But even families don't do that to each other, kan?

I know I'm not practicing this right at this moment, but frankly, I don't care. I need to vent this out.

Hope all goes well with you and your family. Hope whatever happens, you'll stay strong and hold on for the sake of others.