COMMITMENT PHOBIC.
Yes ladies and gentlemen. The ever so faithful me is real but it comes with a defect - I am afraid of commitment. I am not talking about boyfriends and girlfriends. I think I can go on with my life being just girlfriends and boyfriends. I'm talking about the thought of getting engaged and married to one person. What if it's a mistake? I seriously doubt that he's wrong for me. I just think that I might be wrong for him. I mean, almost all my previous relationships ended badly (mostly because of a third person - not from my side, mind you) and when it comes to committing to one person, I get freaked out if one day he realizes "She was a mistake".
One thing I don't ever want to be is a Mistake. Like a grammatical error, or when you wore your favorite stilettos the day there were puddles everywhere. When you're thinking "I shouldn't have done this", it hurts. Especially on the other end of the relationship.
When the time comes, perhaps I'll be ready. But sadly, my dear, that time is not now...
Kudos to those who are committed cause you guys have balls! I don't.
Cheer for change. And hopefully soon.
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