I sometimes can surprise myself on various situations. Example for today: I can withstand certain people's attitude really well for a really long time.
When I think about it, I am patient. Maybe not always, but now I guess I'm more of a 'layankan je' person. People can step you right on your 'ubun-ubun', right after they roll their eyes at you, before they put you down with their words and just when you think it's going to be over soon, they grab you by the neck and say "you've hurt me". Through all these 'ordeals' on these people, I'd still stop and think, "well, maybe they misunderstood the situation" or "they had a rough day today" or "I am stOOpider than them so of course I'm the one at blame here". Yet, they see it as something that is beckoning to them, a big, flashy sign that says - "Degrade me more!" with a smiley face at the end of the phrase.
I can be mean. I choose not to. I can be forgiving. But not all the time. I can be inexorable to these conditions. But with these people being intransigent to oppose change in one-self, I might not have a choice but cry.
I guess what you have in life does not compensate for what you lack in character. Because frankly my dear, I don't give a damn.
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